He is sweet, funny and kind of cute and I feel nothing for him. NOT A DAMN THING!!!! Oh as a friend I adore the boy. He is always so nice and makes me laugh and feel happy. Then he takes it all away. The happiness flee when he talks of us being together and I feel sad. Why? Because I know I am incapable of ever feeling that way towards him. I can never see him as more then just what he is to me now. A good friend.
I would tell him everyday we are just friends and everyday he says for now. =/
He declares his like for me to me everyday and he has even told my best friends.I don't want to hurt him but I feel like I am. Or like I will because I will eventually date again, I feel like that will crush him. That will tear his heart more then it already has been torn. This saddens me.
Why must he feel this way towards me? So strongly and deeply already.I just want us to be friends. To have an easy going no pressures friendship. Instead I must tip toe around his feelings, dance around the words that might slip. I must censor myself.
He has me pushed in corner and forced to subdue a part of me to keep the
hurt from him.
I don't want to hurt him.
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