*sighs*

Lets get this blood rushing and the body ready for what is to come. I shall strengthen who I am to expect who you have became. The words that come from your mouth don't process. They didn't know you like a knew you now you are a completely stranger at and times my heart doesn't even recognize you. Then glimpses of you shine through and I cling to them, a part of me lives for them most of me has given up.


Let your lies spill from your mouth in so deep in lies that you slip and fall. Don't call my name to help you because I just might be foolish enough to turn around. And when I turn around I will be lost again, drowning with you in your own sea of lies. I don't want to drown or love you.

I don't want to feel the pain you release in me. I don't want my mind to race with words you have spoken. I don't want your voice in my head or your image behind my eyelids. I want to banish you from my life, heart, mind and soul. I want it to be as if you didn't exist. But I can't lie to my heart. It feels you out there and when you hold her it aches in my chest.

I hate what I feel But I can't shake it. =C