I am not quite sure why I am writing just feel the random need I guess.
Being unsure at the moment is what drives me to write. In fact I don't what the hell I am going to write about. But of course that not all I don't know about at the moment either. If I could I would write down the thoughts in my head, but the are unclear and jumbled that I am not sure where I would even begin.
IN the picture above is s.a.j...which is now a star in the sky because by all means that is about all that is left of the trio. In its place is a solo and a duo act. The solo act would be me. The only member that matted most to me has long parted ways with me and as for the other well it didn't really effect me. I only miss the one member don't get me wrong the other member I were also close too but I was not at all suprised by said member's departure.
"Every second I'm without you I'm a mess."
I am just getting thoughts out of my head. Feeling off of my chest. I made promises that I broke. You made promises that you broke. I never even knew I habored such feelings, I must be better at burying things then I remember.
"She had an earthquake on her mind."
I am doing pretty good with this expressing myself stuff but then again I wouldn't know. I just good at writing things and dressing them up but not this...this is raw feeling and raNDOM. I am not even going to edit this (but I will add color, so the lyrics go with the song colors.) I just writing and listening to music.I can't help and think of you when a song they we know pops on. Does it still hurt as much?? Sometimes but hey that life.
"I am nothing without I can't breathe."
Time still passes, the world still turns, I still move, live, laugh, smile. But its not the same everything seems to feel emptier.
"How did we get here? I used to I know you so well. "
I wondered how this got so far, how did we let this happened? Are we really irrepairable? Are we broken beyond all hope? All repair? Will we always remain newly shattred as life throws more our way? My questions will truly never be answered. Or will time reavel all?
"My faith in you is fading."
Haha I don't even know what to do. Have I said that before? I am just sitting let my thoughts flow and singing. Music is the thepory that you taught me. Among the other things that I have learned for you.
"I think I am drowning."
I believe I am now at a loss for words. ONly these few sond quetos can cover what i can'T.
"There is a story at the the end of this bottle and I am the pen."
"When the sunshine we'll shine together."
"I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me aloneThese wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too realThere's just too much that time cannot eraseWhen you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tearsWhen you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fearsAnd I held your hand through all of these yearsBut you still have all of me
"Wake me up inside!!"
"I am strong on the surface not all the way through. I've never been perfect but neither have you."
"Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well pretending someone else can come and save me from myself I can't be who you are........ I can't be who you are."
Songs:
The Used-earthquake, I caught fire (In your eyes)
Escape the Fate-Ashley
Paramore-Decode
Muse-Time is running out
All time low- Dear Marie, umbrella (cover)
Taylor swift-love story
Linkin Park- Leave out all the rest
Evanescence- Bring me to life, My Immortal
