Music Moods

Mood: Sleepy
Music: Alesana, Bayside, Coheed & Cambria, Ursa Major & much more
Purpose: Unknown
For: My baybee (because he says all my blogs matter)
Things I am doing while writing: Listening to the radio and Facebook


“You're the only one that I want Think I'm addicted to your light I swore I'd never fall again But this don't even feel like falling”

I run down the hallway and I am laughing, all this does is make me breathless faster but it doesn’t stop me from laughing. I land on my floor in a fit of giggles and I keep thinking about the moments that have filled my life. Memories playing throw my head like an old movie. I close my eyes and sigh, each moment beautiful whether it was painful or not. All it means is that I have lived, longer then some were ever allowed to. (R.I.P Nicole Ashley) This is why I keep telling myself, “Live fearlessly because others never get the moments to do what you can.”

“When I see your face There's not a thing that I would change Cause you're amazing Just the way you are And when you smile,The whole world stops and stares for awhile Cause girl you're amazing Just the way you are”

Damn, our song came on; my heart just skipped a beat. Memories flood of each moment this song played in the background. The moments we spent in your car, light streaming in the windows. Time we should have been in class. Times of us laughing at the stupidest things, it has always been easy with you. So easy, that I time I would wait for you present the catch. Ha, be careful what you wish for, yeah I know. But really all I wish for is forever with you.


Ewww, Jay-z is on now. Something about listening to him gives me a headache, fucks with my spirit. I feel nauseous and disturbed. I always have to mute it as soon as his voice seeps through the speakers. I always wondered why. Not really Lol.

Body Language (Jesse McCartney O.O), it speaks volumes. Your body language can betray your words, I would know. I mean, sometimes I say something but my body totally ignores me. I will be mad at my boyfriend but find my feet moving towards him. Then smiling, oh well, life is too short to stay angry at my love. I always have the time of my life with you (Black eye Peas). You make every moment a special one. I guess it because we can joke about everything, even through I still wonder at moments why do you get so serious and you drift away? I can’t help wonder if you would hold it against me (Britney spears) If I shook you until you snapped out of it.

Now, I am going through old voicemail and I can’t help but smile from all the support I find there. Beautiful messages about my strength, about how great I am. Even about how the world is mine. It really makes me miss 83. More than I am willing to admit. I love those guys like they are my family because they are and it hard to not be with my family. It must be more apparent then I think because they keep checking up on me. Everyone calling and asking, how I am holding up?

Well I am breaking the habit (Linkin Park) who says it has to take a month? I can say it could take a day. I could say that it takes an hour. I can make my own rules? Would I break them? Not if I really believe in them, better make them so steady set of rules then.

I can’t help but dancing. I guess it makes it weird that I don‘t go to parties of clubs. The DJ never had me “fall in love” with anyone (Usher). But I can never say never (Justin Bieber, yes he started playing right after Usher.)I might end up in a club, on a crowd dancing floor, swaying my hips in the mist of a bunch of sweaty bodies. Dancing with a bunch of people who will say I will never forget you (Cee-Lo♥) . I with too many drinks in my system, while laughing to loud at some guys bad jokes. Of course, my baybee will pull me away from the loser before I do something I regret. I rather be at a lounge dancing salsa on two, still drinking of course ;).

Nelly, is singing just a dream and my heart pangs. I can’t help but feel pain at all the lost relationships I have. Friendships that were wasted or taken advantage of but at least I learned from them. Everything in life teaching you something, we are all students of life. You don’t need a class room to teach you how to break a heart, or what a broken heart feels like. Nope, that is all life lessons, some you want to learn other you get to learn anyway. Something you will like (Enrique Iglesias) and Now Diddy, dirty money came on and I lost ,my train of thought. Stupid bouncy beat,. Now G6 and remember being in Harvey’s car and singing and grooving to this song XD. Good times, moments I wouldn’t trade for anything. I can’t believe (yes I can) when I first heard this song I hated it. Now its higher (Taio Cruz) on my list of songs I can tolerate.

Pink ♥ I adores all her music, this song remind me of being in the car too. "RAISE YOUR GLASS!!!!" Since that is where I first I hear it, now my thoughts are fleeing back to you. You are fairytale (Taylor Swift) ♥, my sweet prince of words. I love you. Yay!!!!! Three months in four days, I can't wait ♥. Okay, this rant is over because I am on the phone with Mama Bear and I have been missing her. Man, I will be praying for LP83.