*sighs* This is sad in its truth

(like you do now)
then I would tell my friends to lets ditch you

2:13pm
mhmm. but i'd still get ur name
and find u eventually

2:13pm
I would tell you red
I never give my real name

2:13pm
regardless u'd get mine
and i would search for hours the various spellings of red, redd, reddd

2:14pm
the seond one is right lol
second*
but you wouldn't find me
and I wouldn't be looking for you

2:15pm
well i wouldn't know that at the time

2:15pm
I know that

2:16pm
so. i'd still b on ur mind. so for all intents and purposes, u'd be bagged

2:17pm
who says you would be on my mind
you think my boy toy ouldn't wipe you from my memory just cause you had a debt with me
debate*

2:18pm
nah i'd respect ur "man"
but i do have memorable debates...
nd i'd give u some form of contact for future debates

2:19pm
(eww boy toy not man)

2:19pm
in quotes
cuz i wudn't kno he's ur boytoy either

2:20pm
and you think I would contact you?

2:21pm
u wud. maybe a hi every now and then
no serious conversation

2:22pm
lets say I didn't
and you saw mw again
alone
on a swing at a park

2:22pm
then that's even perfecter
its like a dream come true. and i'd tell u that
that swingsets help me think

2:23pm
I would say me 2

2:24pm
what a coincidence
what do u like to think about?

2:25pm
I would roll my eyes and say liek you care
like*

2:26pm
nd i'd say, ur rite, i don't care.
but i'm sure if u told me, i would start to.
and smile :)
nd thn say: i come here to think about good times in my life

2:27pm
I would say, so?

2:28pm
nd thn i wud laugh
nd say well at least ur honest. u dnt find that everywhere

2:29pm
I would probaly get up and say I don't have tie for your games
(i didn't trust men for shit)
time*

2:30pm
nd then i'd say ur rite... how bout we play a real game
see who can jump furthest off the swingset

2:31pm
I would tell you I don't jump off the swing set

2:31pm
y u chicken?

2:31pm
yes, scared of height

2:31pm
aww! well i used to do it to impress girls
wanna see?

2:31pm
no.
i don't want to be impressed

2:32pm
don't worry. it never worked. that's y i'm single
;)

2:33pm
No your single because you re probaly a jerk
who has broken more hearts then he is aware of
and doesn't care to learn about either

2:34pm
wow. have u been tlkin to my exes?
jk but i dunno bout all that. i do kno i try to make up for it by healin any broken ones i meet along the way
a for effort at least

2:35pm
I would tell you it doesn't matter
guys like you think you fix it'
but make it worse
because then the girl falls for you
and you don't share the feelings

2:36pm
guys like me? what do u know bout a guy likes me? i'm intrigued
*guy like me

2:36pm
Then I would turn away from you
and say foregt it
it doesn't matter anyway

2:36pm
i disagree. its hard to believe someone like u can say somethng that doesn't matter

2:37pm
I would look at you clearly upset and say
I bet you say that to everybody
just another girl to try to impress so you can go tell your boys you bagged another one

2:38pm
well, thats where ur wrong. nd look into ur eyes
u cud feel the honesty and truth burn into your soul and tell i'm not lying

2:39pm
I would look away
I don't believe you
you are just like the rest
here for a second
just long enough to fuck me up somemore then gone

2:40pm
actually... i've been here for about 5 mins. so i'm doin better than most

2:40pm
Look, the i would turn and look at you I really don't have time for your bullshit
what do you want from me anyway

2:41pm
i was just wondering if u cud push me on this swing

2:41pm
I would laugh a bitter laugh and say fuck you
and get off my swing and grab my stuff

2:42pm
actually... i'll pass. can u believe i dnt wanna have sex with u?

2:42pm
I am leaving.. and I would look at you one last time and shake my head
just like the rest of them
slick talk but in the end that is all it os

2:43pm
i'd smile. and say see u next time.
thanks for being honest with me. don't get that often

2:43pm
Okay where do I see yu next ?

2:44pm
its up to u. cuz if we meet up here, u gotta push me. u owe me

2:44pm
(this is not me asking I am just saying you are icking the next place since you brough it up)
(dumbss I already walked away you have to pick the next place we bump into each other)

2:45pm
i'd just be at that swingset. but those wud be my next word
s

2:46pm
So now you're stalking my swingset?

2:46pm
well... its mine first. i'm pretty sure im older

2:46pm
yeah but its across the street from my school
I am pretty sure you don't go there
why are you herer?
here*
?
okay fine ingore me w/e

2:51pm
u didnt get my last response?

2:51pm
no

2:52pm
"hm...
basically said that i'll follow u and stalk u till i get what i want
isn't that what every other guy does?
or maybe i'll follow u...
or i'll just keep swinging rite here. and hope that one day u come back, and insult me some more and finally push me

2:54pm
and I would say what is it that you want creep?
why do you want me to push you?
you are grown, just swing with your legs
but i would sit in the swing next to you

2:54pm
because nobody ever does. when was the last time somebody pushed u on the swingset?

2:55pm
I don't know. My friends do it sometimes to scare me

2:55pm
no i mean like really. lovingly
because they care?

2:56pm
I would look at you and mumble sorry then say never
just my mom I guess when i was younger
Then I would stare

2:56pm
i'd smile, look away, nd remember

2:56pm
who says i would push you lovingly?

2:57pm
i have faith... u seem to have plenty of love. but nobody who seems worth sharing it with

2:57pm
who says your worth it? i would bite my lip and look at me feet
Look I am sorry I just don't trust you
I don't want to be a bitch but I met a hundred guys like you
I don't even know why I am sitting here with you
then I would mumble somthing to myself and say
you nevr answered my question
after sighing deeply
or ingore me ...thats fine too

3:11pm
i understand.

3:11pm
how would you understand
?

3:12pm
i don't trust me either. so i guess we have that in common. nd definitely not art :p

3:12pm
Jerk

3:13pm
lol u got me.

3:13pm
I amleaving

3:13pm
sorry a.d.d. kicks in and i don't answer questions
u can leave. feel free. but i really wouldn't mind seein u again. or swingin next to u. if u'd like of course

3:14pm
You are clearly
some jerk who just says stupid shit

3:15pm
i accidently say smart things sometime

3:15pm
gee thats great
Look it was dumb of me to come here
I will just find a new place to clear my mind

3:16pm
cool!!
i'll see u there

3:17pm
NO
you won't
stop following me
you will only make this worse

3:17pm
i know
u'll prolly fall in love with me
and to make it worse, i'll prolly end up fallin for u
sux rite?

3:19pm
I would look at you with a brief smile then look at you angrily
I will not love you
then i would wlak away shakning my hed

3:19pm
i'd call out: u have urself a bet. when i win... u gotta push me on this swingset. by redd

3:20pm
I would turn a smile
I do like to gamble

3:21pm
i should warn u... i rarely ever lose.

3:21pm
funny neither do I
what do I get if I win?

3:22pm
hey, thn i'll leave u alone. nd u get to be right. about me being a jerk
girls love bein rite

3:22pm
I would laugh
I am already right about you being a Jerk
Cya around jerk

3:23pm
cya later!

3:23pm
OKay then you bumb into at a jays in downtown brooklyn, I am cutting class with my people
Bump*

3:25pm
i ignore u totally

3:25pm
One of my friend's remembers you from the art gallery and says hi

3:25pm
nd rite before u leave, i walk up and say "hey i was trying to be a jerk, but i'm bad at it."

3:26pm
I would look at you and say you did a pretty good job
I think you might be a pro

3:27pm
i learn fast

3:27pm
then I would say hey can I tell you a secret?

3:27pm
shoot

3:27pm
I would pull you to the back of the store and wishper in your ear
you are a jerk but I think I am okay with that
then i would laugh as I walked away

3:29pm
haha i wud have the dumbest look on my face

3:29pm
(lol why?)

3:29pm
cuz i wud kno u totally have the hots for me

3:29pm
anyway
then i bump into to you after not seeing you for two weeks at a store

3:31pm
wat kinda store?

3:31pm
ummm a music store
the kind that still sells records
in willamsberg
burg*

3:31pm
thn we fallin in love

3:31pm
lol
shush
just start the convo
My friend points you out to me and I give a flirty smile in you direction
then I laugh at something she says
Then I shout hey Jerk

3:33pm
i smile! hey loserrr

3:34pm
Iam not a loser

3:34pm
u will be by the end of this bet ;) what u lookin for? my cd isn't in that section

3:35pm
I roll my eyes and my friend laughs and leaves
What cd? I giggle
you got some cult cd about how tobe a jerk

3:35pm
just kiddin. i mean i do make music. but it'll never be here.

3:36pm
OH so the Jerk has a hobby besides stalking women

3:37pm
in my defense, i only stalk u

3:37pm
I smile

3:37pm
NOT that i'm stalkin u rite now
but i would if ihad ur fone number

3:37pm
Nice try Jerk
I am not giving you my number
Then I walk up to the record player and smile
I wish I was born in the 60s

3:39pm
i laugh it off nd say "clearly u were never black"

3:39pm
Then I would laugh back nope I guess I wasn't
Then i would push you against a wall and lean in real close and say I bet this is what you are used to
and what youexpect

3:41pm
i wud resist the impulse to kiss u and say
i expect nothing, so i get surprised more often
then pick u up and trade places. (preferably rite next to a james dean poster to feel like a badass)
nd say... now this is what i'm used to. but not this next part...
put u down and walk over to the beatles
section

3:42pm
I would laugh as I follow you'
you are a slut

3:43pm
no comment!

3:43pm
That was comment enough
Then I laugh
so the beatles huh?

3:44pm
mhmm. nothin like white ppl with soul.
now if i could be one of them... then i'd wanna b in the 60's too

3:45pm
I would laugh then stare at you
then I would sigh and walk away
I have to go Jerk, to much .............I just need air

3:47pm
well... nice seeing u again
stalk u lata ;)

3:47pm
then I would turn around and walk really close to your
our mouths would only be inches apart
then I would laugh and say I think I like you Jerk
Then I would walk out and meet up with my friend outside
anyway :) then I see you at a football game LOL that we both had tickets to and they happened to be located next to each other because life is funny that way

3:52pm
lol
who's playin?

3:52pm
smh you asking me like I am going to be paying attention

3:53pm
lol well i will
i'll give u my coat to stay warm, even tho u'll prolly b rootin for the other team
nd spend the rest of the time yelling and enjoyin it

3:54pm
which gives me the perfect change just to watch you

3:54pm
in my "natural habitat"

3:55pm
yeah
and tehhn when it over I would give you you're jacket and kiss your cheek and say maybe you aren't half bad
at least when your watching football
Lol then we will meet at a shakespere at the park play
by accident of course

3:59pm
lol
nd thn i watch u in ur natural habitat
(and pretend its not my own)

3:59pm
I would be tranifixed
(lol)
mouthing the words I know
I might even reach for your hand because i wouldn't be thinking straight and I would forget I am not supposed to like you

4:00pm
lol

4:01pm
lol well what would you do when I reach for your hand

4:02pm
hold on. that's a one in a million chance

4:02pm
Then I would turn and smile at you
and my guard would be down
my eyes would be sprinlking with the magic of theather
then i would say hey
in a soft voice
I think I might be losing this bet
then i would relize what I said
pull my hand back and say bye without a second galance
BUt I would have left you with my number that I slipped in your hand when i grabbed it

4:14pm
nd i wud die happy

4:14pm
lol no you wouldn't lol
when would you call

4:16pm
usually i'd say never call on the first nite
but ur clearly an exception

4:17pm
I wouldn't know you number so I would pick up and say who is this

4:17pm
ur favorite jerk who is totally gonna win this bet

4:17pm
I would laugh and say you ar emy only jerk
then i would sigh and say
you aren't mine in a low voice

4:18pm
i'd catch that nd say, it cud be worse

4:19pm
I would laugh and say how
?
how could it be worse Jerk?
I am losing this bet. which I hate and I like you/. which isn't something I wanted
so explain how it could be worse

4:28pm
i cud be falling for u too

4:28pm
Then I would suck my teeth
I have to go
I would hang up without saying anything else

4:28pm
who cares? u picked up

4:29pm
only b/c I didn't know tha number
Lol
anyway then i see you the next day at the swings

4:29pm
yesss!!!

4:29pm
but i don't notice you because i am crying
(come on loser say somthing)

4:32pm
oh well thn i come up and say hey...
u look like u need a push
nd smile

4:32pm
I look at you then look away and blush because i am embrassed
don't look at me
I barly manage to say

4:33pm
thn i blurt out, i can't help but look at u
thn blush also, thnkful because its dark
nd say i'm here to listen
even if u dnt wanna talk. i understand

4:34pm
I look at you shocked, why?
why can't you help but look at me?

4:34pm
nothin, its nothin

4:35pm
please tell me
just tell me this
I sniffle
then I will stop
please, please
I never ask anyone for anything
I just want to know

4:36pm
u seem... beautiful.
one day i'll tell u what that means. my definition is a little different

4:37pm
I would look at you and say so is mine
Then I would laugh and get up
I can't believe I am crying over you
then I would walk away
Then I would stop turn around walk up to you and kiss you
then i will pull away and say i was just curious to what that would fell like
feel*
then i would start walking away and say good bye jerk
it was nice knowing ya

4:40pm
i'd be too shocked to speak
nd thn say: does this mean i won?

4:42pm
I would look at you and say I am not sure then tears would run down my face

4:43pm
well then u can't leave without pushin me

4:44pm
I would walk away anyway and turn briefly and say I ama sore loser
Then I would smile a sad smile and says congrats
you got what you wanted
another broken girl to make you feel better abour yourself
you really are a jerk

4:47pm
um... who said u have to stay broken. i'd love to try to fix urs if u'd let me
u can use mine in the meantime

4:48pm
I don't want someone to fix me
i want someone to love me
then i will strom off
storm*

4:48pm
i think i already do
don't u see that?

4:49pm
i wouldn't turn around and iwould laugh my bitter alugh
no
no I don't

4:49pm
well i would. if u let me

4:50pm
let you what?

4:50pm
love you

4:50pm
you love me
no
you are a jerk
you loveyourself
you don't even know me
this is stupid
I don't even know you
I am such aan idoit

4:51pm
thats funny cuz u don't kno mr riyhrt

4:51pm
I don't believe in mr.right

4:52pm
me either ;)

4:52pm
just mister wrong dressed up as mister right

4:52pm
well i believe in u
being different from any one else i kno

4:53pm
We can't do this anymore, you
you can never love me

4:53pm
i guess not
cuz u'd never give me a chance

4:54pm
why would you wanta chance? I am fucked up

4:54pm
but it was nice swingin wit ya
who isn't?

4:54pm
why would you want me?
I am not pretty
I am not the smartest person you will meet
I can't focus most of the time
I am scared of everything
I would be moving closer to you why I saythis
when i care about someone ths littlest thing they say would hurt me

4:56pm
nd i love you

4:56pm
and I don't want you to be able to hurt me
what?

4:57pm
i love you

4:58pm
I would be frozen in my place
You love me? I would look srsly confused

4:59pm
besides, i already have ur heart
possession is 9/10ths of the law

5:00pm
Iwould still being staring at you
I.......I......no....... you....
you don't know if you have myheart
then I take to step closer
two*

5:02pm
mhmm

5:03pm
what makes you think you have my heart?
I take two more steps closer

5:03pm
i said that? takes a step closer

5:03pm
yes, steps closer again
yes you did

5:04pm
oh.. steps closer

5:04pm
aren't you going to tell me why you think that? steps closer

5:04pm
because of this
goes in for the movie kiss!!

5:05pm
Pulls back
that's cheating
smiles
but leans back in for a second kiss
pauses okay so maybe I do owe you a push on the swings

5:12pm
now THAT is all i wanted
this is just extra.

5:13pm
I smile and push you onto the sing
you are such a jerk
swing*