Scapegoat

People tend to place the blame on me. When I only do what I am asked to do. Oh I am sorry for wanting something for myself. How selfish of me. I forget I have only to think to you. Silly little me thinking I should put myself first for once. And you want to blame this all on me. Fuck that! This is your fault dumbass. You slipped up. Sure use me as the excuse because you fall for someone else. Well fuck you to mister I am perfect yet only human at the same time. Fuck you and you self righteous ass as you looked down on everyone who isn’t as wound as tight as you are. You and your ten foot pole that lodge in your ass. Smoking is wrong. Drinking is cruel come on everybody stay in school. Fuck you and your damn nursery rhyme bullshit. You loved us huh? Then how is it that we were so easy to let go of. Oh wait you still talk to Lilith. So you love her fine. But you still lied to me you piece of worthless shit. And you creep in every time I heal ripping the wound open from the inside. But now that I know the reason I can say I despise you and your foolish excuse. You and the bullshit that I know that you’re full of. You and you picture perfect happiness while I suffer because of you. Fuck it!!! I HATE YOU!!!!! Do me a favor and die. Die painfully. Oh look I am full of shit to because I can’t even mean that when I write it. Because as the day closes I still miss what we had. I miss our friendship they way I had someone to always turn to. But I always play the fool, the tool to somebody I always have always will. Everyone uses me as if they were doing me a favor. I have gone thorough pain for you all. And I do one FUCKING THING FOR ME AND I AM THE BAD GUY. ALL OF A FUCKING SUDDEN NO ONE CAN FORGIVE ANYMORE BECAUSE THAT’S MY FUCKING JOB RIGHT! WELL FUCK YOU!!! FUCK YOU!!! AND FUCK YOU ONCE FUCKING MORE! Screw everything you have ever said. Screw the lies, the sweet talk, the nicknames, the laughs, your face, your voice, you and everything. SCREW 1/13/07 – 5/10/08 EVERY FUCKING DAY IN FUCKING BETWEEN, EVERY SECOND THAT YOU WERE MY “BEST FRIEND”. EVERY MILISECOND WASTED ON YOU AND YOU’RE LIESSSSS!!!!! D: SCREW YOUR WEAK SHIT AND THE FACT THAT YOU’RE A MAN. SCREW YOU FOR MAKING ME CRY, SCEARM AND DIE ON THE INSIDE. PROM LOL WHAT A REASON WHAT A FUCKING REASON. FUCK STRIGHT EDGE I AM GOING TO LIVE ON THE EDGE TEETHER OFF EVERY NOW AND THEN JUST TO BE ANYTHING BUT YOU. STUIPD LITTLE GIRLS MAKE BOYS THEIR AGES THE ROLE MODELS. STUIPD FUCKING ME!!! I WILL HAVE A NICE A LIFE THANK YOU FOR WISHING ME ONE. I AM DONE CRYING!!! I AM DONE CARING!! FUCK EVERYONE IN THE END I ONLY HAVE ME!