Let’s count

Let’s count the tears I have cried over the last six months. Let us count the nights I woke up screaming in false hope that it would some how reach your ears despite our distant. It is always you. You are always in my heart not matter how many times I try to banish you. Like a snake you slither back in. Each time you leave you take another piece of me. Leaving me an empty hopeless shell of who I used to be.

Pain so deep that it even hurts to laugh, a smile is forced and painful. It feels like I am waiting at death’s doorstep and instead of death killing me you are. I stare at your empty cold eyes shocked that it’s really you.

What happened to your gentleness? What happened to the sweet lies you told? What happened to my ignorant bliss? What happened to my trust?

Let me tell you what happened my eyes weren’t opened no the lids were cut off by the shaky hands of a boy I called best friend. This boy should win an Oscar his lies tricked the best of us. His words lured you into a sense of security.

Beware the beauty of his words. Beware the way he builds you up. The way he tears you down and laughs as you fall. The fall will hurt and the air around you will seem to be on his side forcing against your lungs making it hard to breathe. The tears will fall with out you being aware of them.

So your stuck staring into the eyes of your demise and wishing for nothing more then for it to all be over.