Terrfied.

My knees shake, my heart pounds and I can't help but feel afraid. I count the seconds you are with me, hoping that you won't turn and walk away. That you won't think WTF? I am doing here. I look in your eyes hoping that they will tell me what your lips don't say. I feel myself faltering, instinct trying to pull me back. "Stay safe!" My head shouts, I chose to ignore it and trudge forward. I am doing the right thing...right???? NO stop don't do this.........not again. DOn't make him pay for someone elses mistakes.....GOD HELP ME