Begin.Again.Drowning.A New.

Everything is fragile. broken by simple words or harsh action or inaction. held together by thin threads of old dreams and fragile mind sets.

I let the disillusion hang in the air like unsaid words or sexual tension never once bringing up the words i dare not whisper even in the confines of my own mind.

Reality blankets me in my own cocoon it tightens causing my air ways to close and then it releases me from its grip and throws me head first into the water.

The faces of all those who have caused me harm float in the water like birds around a cartoon's head when it hits against the unforgiving pavement.

"I will swallow and it will help my sea level go down. I'll take a deep deep breathe but I 'll come back you haunt you if I drown."

"Can I trust you?" Funny question I ask myself everyday.

I am a ghost . Does my pain go unnoticed? Or is it that no one cares?

Can you feel them break? the thin lines anchoring me to sanity? Can you see my eyes glisten from un-shead tears?



Believe this the one who watches me closely notices nothing. The ones who hears my stories no nothing. For what I have begun to keep to myself is eating me alive.